tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27322045438794160052024-03-05T02:57:09.222-08:00The Diary of a Hopeless RomanticUnknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger34125truetag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2732204543879416005.post-8833684051307476202013-10-03T13:13:00.001-07:002013-10-03T16:30:15.154-07:00My Dear Rose, By LaRita Holden
I was born January 3rd, 1990. My mother named me Rose because of her dear love for Roses. Roses were beautiful and my mother told me every day that I was her beautiful Rose, sweet and lovely. My mother's name was Daisy.
I got married at the age of 18. My mother had just lost her job as a housekeeper and was unable to pay the rent or buy food, so I had met Paul just in the nick of time. As soon as I turned 18, we were married 2 months later. Although Paul was 10 years older than me, I still fell for him instantly. My sister Lily was already in college in her 2nd year working on her Bachelor’s degree in Psychology. Lily was smart, and I always knew that I wanted to be like her one day. She was my beautiful big sister and was already excelling in life. She already had a job and her own apartment off campus. I looked up to her greatly, but I had plans of my own.
Paul was everything that I ever wanted in a man. He was tall, dark skin, muscular, and was well established in life. Paul owned 2 auto shops. Business was good. The day I married him was the day I moved in his house.
Paul had shown me things that I had never seen before. He knew how to wine and dine a lady; dinners, expensive gifts, cars, Paul paid for everything that I wanted. He even brought my mother a house. But all of that came with a price after a while.
5 months of living with & being married to Paul, I started to see a side of him I had never saw before. Although he was controlling and demanding, I didn't mind because he gave me everytHing I ever wanted and needed. Paul had even hit me a few times when he got mad, but he always made it up to me with gifts. And I accepted it because I knew he didn't really mean to do it.
5 years had passed and Paul and I were on and off with our relationship. The drinking had become more frequent and the beatings had become more severe. By now we had twins named Jacob and Jael who were 3yrs old. For the sake of Jacob and Jael having their father around, I always took Paul back, but he had done so much to hurt me. He cheated on me several times, broke my arm, busted my lip, burned my back with a lighter and broke my leg by pushing me down the stairs. Paul would come home drunk, accuse me of cheating and lying to him. He'd slap me, kick me, punch me, even tried to suffocate me with a pillow one day but he stopped once he saw Jacob screaming and crying at the bedroom door.
One evening Paul came home from work upset. Things weren't going well with the auto shops, business was declining and Paul's drinking turned from every weekend to every night. Paul was upset because dinner was not made. Paul punched me in the eye, took my head and held my head under his arm in a choke hold. Minutes later the cops were banging on the door. Paul was arrested. He begged me not to press charges and promised he wouldn't do it again. We did counseling together and Paul took accountability classes.
On my 23rd birthday, instead of being out celebrating, I was in the hospItal. Paul searched my phone that morning and saw a text message from a long time male school mate. Last thing I remembered was Paul beating me with a frying pan. I woke up in the hospital, not knowing how I had even got there. A nurse came to me and asked me questions. She asked about my mom, my dad and asked if I had siblings. I told her yes but I wasn't close to them. They were honestly fed up with me putting up with Paul's abuse, but I loved him, and I believed he could change, and I knew he loved me because he gave me everything that I needed. I couldn't tell the nurse this so I just told her that I was fine and that I had to get back to my children. I was honestly scared too. Paul told me he would kill me if I ever told anyone he hit me.
That night I went home. Paul apologized. I ran in looking for the kids. He said he had dropped them off to my mother's house. I ran to the phone to call my mom. She was hysterical when she heard my voice. I told her not to worry, that I was fine and had just passed out after feeling a little dizzy this morning. She said the children were sound asleep and I told her I would call her back.
That night was a night I would never forget. Paul said he couldn't get the image of the text message out of his mind, plus of course he had been drinking. I pleaded with Paul that it was completely innocent, a school mate who was like a brother to me my entire childhood. Paul yelled at me, called me worthless, a slut and a whore. He said I was a good for nothing and didn't deserve to be treated good because I was a cheater and disrespectful to him. Paul punched me. Blood ran from my nose. I ran as fast as I could. He caught me and stomped me in the back which seemed like forever. Last thing I remember was Paul wrapping his hands around my neck and saying," You will pay for disrespecting me." I could see the anger and rage in his eyes.
June 28, 2013 was my funeral.
I lived a short life, but I didn’t live the way that I should have. I was looking forward to living longer, raising my children, being happy and making my mother proud of me. I confused love with someone taking care of me and buying me gifts, but I’m gone now, and I can’t take those gifts with me. My mother came up to my casket and said, “ My dear Rose, you are as beautiful now as the day you were born, my beautiful Rose, sweet and lovely. May you rest in peace. I am sad that you are no longer with us, but I am at peace with you no longer in pain and suffering.
If you or someone you know is in abusive relationship please tell them domestic violence is not love. Help them to get out before it’s too late.
EDV- End Domestic Violence.......
Love, Rose......Copyright ©2013 LaRita Holden
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A hopeless romantic is a person who is in love with love.They believe in a fairy tale love. They believe that fairy tales can come true and long to have that special someone in their life. They're not to be confused as stalkers or creepy because that's not what a hopeless romantic is. All hopeless romantics are idealists,the sentimental dreamers,the imaginative and they are deep souls once you get to know them. They often live with rose colored glasses on. They make love look like an art form with all the romantic things they'd do for their special someone and trust me, they'd do it. <br />
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A hopeless romantic is not the same as a hopeless flirter. A hopeless romantic dreams of who they will spend the rest of their life with and what the two of them will do together. They want to be romanced with sweet simple things and thoughtful amazing surprises. They dream of being loved but also loving someone. They don't want to just hold someone. They also want to be held. Hopeless romantics realize that love isn't just about one person but both people. They are hopelessly in love with being loved and loving back.<br />
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Hopeless Romantics are NOT Hopeless per-say, but very true, caring, and loving people. They are "NOT MADE FOR TODAYS STANDARDS", sadly. They believe in passion, chivalry, and true love. They have loved sincerely at one point in their life, discovered what love feels like, and can't understand why it was not returned in the same form. Hopeless Romantics are usually dreamers, idealists, and sincere, however what they expect in any relationship is a full return for their effort and caring, to be loved as much as they loved. What makes them "Hopeless" is the fact that they are few and far between in todays daily life, and usually get let down in the long run, even though they gave all that they had to give such as love, quality time and more. Hopeless Romantics give 100% ALL the time, and hope for the same in return.<br />
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Many people have this defintion of a hopeless romantic all wrong....A hopeless romantic is NOT someone who can't get anyone and they die lonely. A hopeless romantic is someone who is truly in love with true love. They will do anything to be with the person they love. They believe in the idea that there is only ONE person out there for them. They like to be adventurous, spontaneous and romantic with the one that they love.<br />
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A hopeless romantic is someone who truly belives in love not someone who can't get a date. They belive that love is the most beautifull thing on earth. When they're sad, just knowing that someone is thinking of them makes them smile, holding their hand makes them feel like they can fly, being loved, respected, cherished and appreciated. <br />
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Hopless Romantics beleive in the Ultimate love, finding that one special person that you may want to one day call your soulmate, someone you can honor, respect, love, cherish, appreciate, share special moments with and do special things with, someone you can talk to, someone you can trust, someone who believes in being loyal, faithful and genuine, someone you build a foundation with. <br />
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A hopeless romantic is a person who daydreams about romantic occasions and dreams of chances where he or she will be able to perform ongoing romantic acts to show and express their love, yet hardly, rarely or never get the chance to show it in many cases.<br />
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A hopeless romatic does not just have a sexual agenda. A hopeless romatic a deep being that wants more than just sex. They feel that making love with deep feelings involved is more meaningful. They want passion, deep intimate feelings charged with this chemistry and feelings of strong emotions. A hopeless romatic is a person who's interetsed in stimulating not only your body but also stimulating your mind, spirit, heart and soul. <br />
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A hopeless romatic actually want to take the time out to love you deeply for the beautiful spirit you are and want the same in return. We are simple people and we want to also be shown that we are appreciated and loved. We idolize the idea of love and all that it consists of. We want true happiness and will continue to be hopeless romantics because it's in our nature. <br />
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A hopeless romantic is a person who believes in all the little things about love, despite painful burns and heart shattering scenarios. And even after all this, deep inside won't give up on the idea that true does exisit. A well intentioned heart who seems to find love in all the wrong places but who's heart never spoils<br />
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Hopeless romantics are very loyal and will have eyes for only you. They will do whatever they feel they need to do to prove their love, but want the same in return. <br />
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Hopeless romantics have dreams of one day settling down, finding their true love, prehaps getting married, waking up to this one beautiful special person every morning, sharing intimate moments and realizing that it is the simple things in life that warms the heart and make love worth having.<br />
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Sadly, there are not many of us left out here. To know a hopeless romantic is to understand us and appreciate the love that one has to offer. With a hopeless romantic, you'll have real happiness. You'll have true love, romance and everything you ever wanted in love. You just have to know if your ready to endure it and never let go of it.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2732204543879416005.post-85926564339557835942012-05-14T22:00:00.002-07:002012-05-14T22:06:00.355-07:00Feeling you feeling me<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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I can't stop the ache that's coming from in between my legs.
As I stare into your eyes my body quivers, urgency knocks.
The mere thought of your hands all over my fruit strikes anxiety within me.
Filled with uncontrollable thoughts and urges, I pull you close and press my lips into yours.
Your sweet and soft kiss feels like a sweet melody...the sound of the sea.
I close my eyes, I see you. I open my eyes, I see you.
I peel your clothes off like a banana being peeled; your eyes tell me that you're ready.
Our bodies mesh into each other's, a feeling that can't be explained.
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Slowly losing control, I climb on top of you and kiss you deeply and passionately.
A beautiful sigh of ecstasy slips from your lips as I trail my kisses down your neck.
My name escapes you and you beg me not to stop, your wish is my command.
I grab your neck and lightly sink my teeth into your skin like a vampire.
I can tell you’re pleased by the way you grab my waist, pushing me deep into you
I grind my hot and dripping secretions on top of yours; you take your tongue and glide it across
my body like a paint brush painting a portrait, the art of making love.
Two beings latched to each other like a key stuck in a lock.
No exit wanted.
I urgently drop to the floor pulling you on top of me.
I want to taste the best fruit from the cherry tree.
My tongue begs to have you for breakfast lunch and dinner
from dusk till dawn, morning, noon and night, wanting you
Like a desert needing the rain, this shit is as serious as a venomous snake....
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Words cannot express the ramped thoughts of you and I
How much I anticipate the next moment of you and I
And until that moment when we become one
You'll crave me until my lips meet your body
Feeling you feeling me....
Can you feel it?
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But just a thing of my past<br />
My heart turned cold<br />
After all that's been said and done<br />
My heart can no longer feel for something like you<br />
Ashes to Ashes<br />
Dust to dust<br />
I've burried you recently<br />
Killing you was a must<br />
You didn't deserve a life<br />
With a being like me in it<br />
Let alone without me in it<br />
All thoughts & memories<br />
A makeship of dust I flushed away yesterday<br />
Rest In peace<br />
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You are not my enemy<br />
But just a thing of my past<br />
We no longer exist<br />
A vivid speckle of mist<br />
Which turned into nothing<br />
That's what you are and what you have become <br />
Step into the darkness<br />
And fall to your death<br />
Take a bow<br />
The show has just ended<br />
You are I are no longer a memory<br />
But just a figment of one's Imagination<br />
NOTHING<br />
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This sudden change has punctured my soul<br />
Opening my eyes wide to fact that I mean nothing<br />
You mean nothing, we mean nothing, there's nothing<br />
For you to even say at this point but to remain<br />
Burried, don't reach for me, don't call for me<br />
Don't even look at me, don't utter my name out<br />
Of your chapped lips, skin as rough as the ground<br />
And eyes filled with nothing but sewage<br />
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Blind to fact that your journey was to be continued<br />
Walking the plank with your leveled soul<br />
Walking into the light with your being as one<br />
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You are not my enemy <br />
But Just a thing of my past<br />
A thing that my walls have shut down for<br />
No entry allowed because you are not worthy<br />
Of a genuine, whole-hearted forgiving fruit as I<br />
Who else would't allow someone in who'd give their life?<br />
Who would beckon at your dying wish? Who'd be there until<br />
You took your last breath, You couldn't possibly Imagine<br />
And see the sweet fruit in me, a fruit you'd want to keep forever<br />
But you took the fruit as I and threw it away<br />
And before I died, you as well were dead to me<br />
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Ashes to ashes<br />
Dust to dust<br />
Destroying every part of you<br />
Was a must<br />
To rid all details of you<br />
That reminded me how cold & dead<br />
Life had become when you abandoned<br />
someone you said you loved<br />
You couldn't possibly love yourself<br />
Because loving yourself would mean<br />
You loving me and you hate that, so you hate yourself<br />
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When you reach out for your soul<br />
It'll be gone...Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2732204543879416005.post-73844964182453487622011-09-17T18:39:00.000-07:002011-09-17T18:46:29.540-07:00Chasing...NothingChasing dreams<br />
Chasing clouds<br />
Chasing Love<br />
Chasing heartache<br />
Chasing... a dream<br />
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Sunlight in disguise crept into my window<br />
Seeping into my eyes one morning<br />
I was...blinded<br />
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Blinded by what I thought was love<br />
Darkness quickly came & wrapped its hands<br />
Around my sunlight,Choking it limp<br />
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The sky turned dark<br />
Winds blew severely<br />
Birds scurried far away<br />
I heard crying, screams & pain<br />
I looked down and fell to my knees<br />
Watching my heart crumble<br />
Into more than a million pieces<br />
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I looked up with tears flowing from my eyes<br />
Only to find... a body with no soul or spirit<br />
Peering down at me with no remorse or regret<br />
This physical form walks over me, stepping on the pieces of my heart<br />
Walking toward darkness, I fell to my back<br />
And gave in as the ocean's biggest wave consumed me<br />
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Love...left me to die<br />
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Chasing fantasies <br />
Chasing stars<br />
Chasing heartbreak<br />
Chasing you<br />
When I really was<br />
Chasing...a dream<br />
A dream that would never come true<br />
Chasing...NothingUnknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2732204543879416005.post-48495608366354448172011-09-17T14:41:00.000-07:002011-09-17T14:41:40.417-07:00From Flakes to Dust<i>My heart was once mighty and hard<br />
Now it feels broken and Scarred<br />
Now with pieces shattered and cold<br />
You stole my heart and now its sold<br />
I find a piece here and there<br />
I feel I’ve searched almost everywhere<br />
I had the peices found and was ready again to trust<br />
But yet again my heart you bust<br />
The pieces are smaller and harder to find<br />
I feel as though I am losing my mind<br />
Some pieces are lost and it makes my heart bleed<br />
Your corrupt love I do not need<br />
I yelled for you until my voice was hoarse<br />
Now whats left is jagged and coarse<br />
If I only knew what your love would do<br />
I would have never said I belonged to you<br />
You Squeezed my weakend heart until it bust<br />
Now everythings gone from flakes to dust…<br />
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</i>This post was submitted by LyricalPoet.<br />
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Poem from www.blessedwithlove.comUnknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2732204543879416005.post-58264536522163862842011-08-06T12:11:00.000-07:002011-08-06T12:27:31.403-07:00Weather my storm<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgk6xSxsPPVjlxDQLqAsyTKTrGIm2V7Dqppk3lCUeOkRmZhNC4q3vNdDpiiohS8p0SRDP6tJJY55jYqlrl1wKM6dtP34-zq9qiLdmTTk5fdAlsIs79gCOO0T8Pxfg9ECM51QXtmjc5OnOER/s1600/107_0015.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="clear:right; float:right; margin-left:1em; margin-bottom:1em"><img border="0" height="180" width="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgk6xSxsPPVjlxDQLqAsyTKTrGIm2V7Dqppk3lCUeOkRmZhNC4q3vNdDpiiohS8p0SRDP6tJJY55jYqlrl1wKM6dtP34-zq9qiLdmTTk5fdAlsIs79gCOO0T8Pxfg9ECM51QXtmjc5OnOER/s320/107_0015.JPG" /></a></div><br />
Like the rain in the night<br />
Tell me baby...<br />
Can you weather my storm?<br />
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A place where It's Intensly hot<br />
Satisfying & warm?<br />
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Tonight It's gonna be a flood<br />
Definitely far from the norm<br />
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A heavy down pour<br />
As wet as a tropical storm<br />
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A new place, a new life<br />
Where a beautiful dream was born<br />
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Shining bright as the sun<br />
All over, your beauty adorns<br />
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A place where we not shed tears or mourn<br />
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But a place where 2 becomes 1<br />
Our King & Queen crowns are worn<br />
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Love is needing someone. Love is putting up with someone's bad qualities because they somehow complete you.<br />
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No relationship is perfect, ever. There are always some ways you have to bend, to compromise, to give something up in order to gain something greater...The love we have for each other is bigger than these small differences. And that's the key. It's like a big pie chart, and the love in a relationship has to be the biggest piece. Love can make up for a lot.<br />
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I am coming to terms with the fact that loving someone requires a leap of faith, and that a soft landing is never guaranteed.<br />
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Pushing people away from you, and denying yourself love, that doesn't make you strong. If anything, it makes you weaker. Because you're doing it out of fear.<br />
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Above Quotes by Sarah Dessen.<br />
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More Love Quotes.....<br />
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What lies behind us, and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us. <br />
~ by Ralph Waldo Emerson ~ <br />
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"Love sees with the heart and not with mind."<br />
Shakespeare<br />
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Upon thy cheek I lay this zealous kiss, as seal to the indenture of my love."<br />
Shakespeare, from King John Act II Scene I<br />
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"My soul hath her content so absolute that not another comfort like to this succeeds in unknown fate."<br />
William Shakespeare<br />
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Love is like a river, never ending as it flows, but gets greater with time<br />
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Love is a journey not a destinationUnknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2732204543879416005.post-72575509813641490152011-07-12T20:39:00.000-07:002011-07-14T19:34:47.271-07:00I am...The OneI've always felt like I was this simple girl<br />
Only requiring the simple things in life<br />
To make me happy,to keep a smile on my face<br />
I've never required the world<br />
Although I feel like I do deserve it<br />
Because I'm also willing to give that special person<br />
The world, the sun, the moon, the stars, unlimited access to all of me<br />
I can give...but the question is...<br />
Will I receive what I deserve? For so long I've given<br />
Given too much of myself, given too much of my time<br />
Given too much attention & love and yet, at the end of it all<br />
I still haven't received what I truly want, need & deserve<br />
It's like I've been giving to the wrong persons<br />
People who've been heartless, selfish, so self-consumed & callous<br />
I sometimes wonder, If there's a God, why does God allow these type of people into my life to hurt me; to manipulate me; to deceive me<br />
Why are these people even brought fourth to me?<br />
I never question God but I always wonder...<br />
The deal is this: I am not perfect so I'm not in search of perfection<br />
I don't require riches in order to be happy<br />
I'm not superficial nor selfish<br />
I'm not the type of female you can just woo with trinkets & gifts<br />
Although I do deserve nice things, I require more than materalistic <br />
Ok...you drive & you may drive a nice car...and? <br />
Am I suppose to fall all over you? No<br />
Ok, you got money & love to spend it...and?<br />
Money makes everyone happy for the moment while spending it<br />
But money's not gonna keep me warm at night,make love to me or fill my heart; At the end of the day, will you show me better than you can tell me?<br />
Will you consider my feelings? Will you want something true & real? Will you be different than the rest? Will you cook for me sometimes? Take me to dine out? rub my feet? pamper your lady? Will you give me the quality time that should be spent? Will we share thoughts & ideas together? Deep intimate & precious moments? Will you stand with me until the end of time?<br />
Love<br />
Trust<br />
Honesty<br />
Quality time<br />
Understanding<br />
Affection<br />
Attention<br />
Communication<br />
Consistency<br />
Loyalty...where are you?<br />
Nothing hurts more<br />
Than to get use to something or someone<br />
Then without any notice, it's gone<br />
Taken away from you... your left... feeling disappointed<br />
All that you wanted was so near, but not really<br />
You sit by the phone, waiting for it to ring<br />
Waiting for a text, any indication of contact<br />
Constantly hoping, waiting, wishing & praying<br />
That the one would reach out to you<br />
But it never happens, and if it does<br />
It's on their terms & when they feel like it...<br />
Do I deserve that? After all that we shared?<br />
After I've opened up myself up to you?<br />
You build me up to break me down, which makes it worse...<br />
Because my guard is back up & I'm not letting anyone in...<br />
Afraid to give myself, afraid to fall, afraid to allow my emotions<br />
To take over, afraid to give my heart,Afraid to get my hopes up,<br />
Give all of me, put my heart, feelings & emotions back on the line<br />
Only to be cut down; taken advantage of; taken on a joyride of deception<br />
Lies, confusion...emotional rollercoaster, draining my energy & my heart<br />
The truth of the matter is that<br />
I deserve better<br />
I will have better<br />
Why?<br />
Because I am a Queen<br />
A Natural Black Beauty<br />
A star in the night next to your moon<br />
I am your sunrise<br />
Your water when your thirst needs to be quenched<br />
Your fire<br />
Your every desire<br />
I am...the beat to your heart<br />
Your air<br />
Your past, your present & your future<br />
I am...The beginning to your ending<br />
The reason why your heart beats faster when you think of me<br />
A damsel in distress<br />
Awaiting her king to pick up the peices & complete the puzzle<br />
I am...The OneUnknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2732204543879416005.post-7661293690316673572011-07-03T18:04:00.000-07:002011-07-04T22:18:47.880-07:00La Boom Baby<i>Yeah baby...<br />
Viva La Boom...aka #TeamBadBitch#<br />
I've raised the bar<br />
Yeah, moved it up a notch<br />
Cause somebody gotta match my fly<br />
Compliment me, compliment you...compliment each other<br />
Hot mama status & there's no turning back<br />
Me settle for less? NADA<br />
Gainfully employed, college graduate<br />
Book smart, street smart, Intelligent<br />
Sexy, sense of humor, outgoing & down to earth...<br />
Meet me on my level & we can talk<br />
Wanna be with a chick like me?<br />
You gotta do more than just talking<br />
Cause I'm definitely not too much into da small talk<br />
You gotta SHOW & PROVE<br />
Get down to business & show me why I should show you some play<br />
Yeah I said it...and?<br />
Shit, I'm worth it<br />
Me lower my standards? NAH<br />
Cause you see, me, I'm a grown ass woman<br />
On my grown woman shit<br />
I know what I want, I know what I need<br />
I know what pleases me & I want what I want<br />
So you tell me.....<br />
Can you match my fly?<br />
Cause I'm definitely wanted by many<br />
But only prefer ONE in particular<br />
But yeah, I've raised my standards<br />
And If you wanna be with a chick like me<br />
You gotta be on my level<br />
Mentally, spiritually, physically, emotionally<br />
Baby I want it all<br />
Fire, desire, passion, intimacy, quality time<br />
Romance, a deep & Intimate connection, chemistry,<br />
love-making...a chick like me wants something real<br />
I'm beyond the head games, past the drama<br />
Over the constant lies & bullshit &<br />
Bored of the empty promises & the senseless talk...<br />
"I miss you" "I love you"<br />
Look, keep the useless talk to ya self if you not PROVING anything<br />
Cause looka here, while you talking that samle 'ol shit<br />
Somebody else is sniffing at my dress, checking for a sista<br />
And my time is too valuable to waste<br />
This queen is sitting at the top of her throne<br />
Waiting for her king to step up & take his seat<br />
So we can rule the world together<br />
So tell me baby, what you got for a sista?<br />
Do you have goals? dreams? a career? college educated? making an honest living? are you strong? independent? what are you in search of? <br />
What are your accomplishments? Your wants & desires? You think you ready for a woman like me? Are you ready to start living and enjoying life?<br />
If you are, baby, I'm here, the real deal<br />
Take your position & brace yourself<br />
Because my expectations are higher than Before<br />
& if you think I'm up to ride an emotional rollercoaster<br />
play tag, sorry or a game of chance...<br />
Then I'm sorry<br />
I'll have the play the goodbye game and let the door knob<br />
Hit you on your way out...<br />
So baby, you choose<br />
Are you ready for the real deal or what?<br />
Because mama won't be around or unattached for too long<br />
And I won't sit around and wait on you until you decide <br />
What you want and need in your life<br />
A queen....waiting on her king<br />
Come rescue me daddy<br />
Your ship has finally come<br />
Are you ready? Because I amUnknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2732204543879416005.post-67445392183635577802011-06-15T19:42:00.000-07:002011-06-27T19:55:26.358-07:00Baby....<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg7hOiMLKjdK4SHsYTZRIgIUARnAtOZGiZU9T6W7XgQ-apX5CxdLzLYrlBv_6dpth-0PyJfxTMIQaH7U82MEwkWanv_e64iUDABcK50NEIN_EktMb_eDFJSW1QaTUuHRm2J4cUgWmAKjcXw/s1600/photo.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="clear:left; float:left;margin-right:1em; margin-bottom:1em"><img border="0" height="320" width="239" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg7hOiMLKjdK4SHsYTZRIgIUARnAtOZGiZU9T6W7XgQ-apX5CxdLzLYrlBv_6dpth-0PyJfxTMIQaH7U82MEwkWanv_e64iUDABcK50NEIN_EktMb_eDFJSW1QaTUuHRm2J4cUgWmAKjcXw/s320/photo.JPG" /></a></div><br />
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Hey baby<br />
Yeah...it's me<br />
Let me ask you something<br />
Have you been thinking about me<br />
The way that I've been thinking about you?<br />
Babe....<br />
On some real serious shit<br />
I need you, seriously wanting you<br />
So come on, cum to me, & be prepared<br />
Be prepared to take this love to a new height<br />
I'm ready<br />
Ready for you to devour me<br />
Got my mind right<br />
My body right<br />
Oh yeah, you know what time it is<br />
Time we put our loving to the test<br />
Baby, make love to me<br />
Make love to my physical, my mental<br />
My emotional, my spirit<br />
Make love to my soul<br />
Bring me back to life baby...<br />
Close your eyes & press your lips against mine, lets begin<br />
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There's no other place I would rather be right now<br />
Than in your arms and in between your legs<br />
Feeling your sweet succulent tongue flicker my.....<br />
Sucking every inch of my body<br />
Yes baby...<br />
I'm more than ready to fall deep into your love<br />
But tell me...are you ready for this?<br />
Cause it look like you got one foot in<br />
And one foot out the door<br />
And if with me is where you really wanna be<br />
Then let your actions do the talking, be ready<br />
Cause I'm ready to give you all of me, from head to toe<br />
Inside & out....baby, before you even touch my body<br />
Lets deeply connect and stimulate each other's mind...Telekinesis<br />
Wet & slippery & you haven't even touched it yet<br />
Baby, how you gonna handle that?<br />
Lets not waste any time talking...<br />
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Come in, close the door behind you<br />
Make yourself comfortable<br />
Have a glass of wine with me<br />
Lets suck on these juicy strawberries & grapes<br />
You like that right? Yes, I know you do<br />
Do you like what I'm wearing?<br />
Its your favorite color<br />
Oh and the pumps, yeah, I'll keep those on all night<br />
Come here.........<br />
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Even if I was blind <br />
You've got me really <br />
Going out of my mind <br />
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Things that you whisper <br />
Soft in my ear <br />
Words I've been wanting <br />
So long to hear <br />
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I don't know if it's real <br />
But I know how I feel it's <br />
So crazy, so amazing <br />
You can take me now <br />
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Got my back against the wall <br />
Feels like I'm standing ten feet tall <br />
On the ledge too close to call <br />
If you push I just might fall <br />
I just might fall <br />
I just might fall <br />
I just might fall <br />
I just might fall <br />
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When you're not near me <br />
I long for your touch <br />
When you're right here with me <br />
I can't get enough <br />
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The way I used to think girl <br />
Will never be the same <br />
'Cause you reside deeply <br />
In my heart and my brain <br />
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I don't know if it's real <br />
<br />
But I know how I feel it's <br />
So amazing, so crazy <br />
I can't shake you now <br />
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Got my back against the wall <br />
Feels like I'm standing ten feet tall <br />
On the ledge too close to call <br />
If you push I just might fall <br />
I just might fall <br />
I just might fall <br />
I just might fall <br />
I just might fall <br />
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Each and every moment <br />
Without you is a long one <br />
Thinking about you <br />
And I know nothing will never be the same <br />
<br />
Waited a lifetime <br />
To find you <br />
Just want to stay right beside you <br />
I won't let it slip away <br />
<br />
Got my back against the wall <br />
Feels like I'm standing ten feet tall <br />
On the ledge too close to call <br />
But if you push I just might fall <br />
I just might fall <br />
I just might fall <br />
I just might fall <br />
I just might fallUnknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2732204543879416005.post-77642513314000894702011-03-20T20:58:00.000-07:002011-03-20T21:43:48.185-07:00Love QuotesTrying to make someone fall in love with you is about as pointless as trying to control who you fall in love with.<br />
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It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone and a day to love someone - but it takes a lifetime to forget someone. <br />
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You can close your eyes to the things you do not want to see, but you cannot close your heart to the things you do not want to feel.<br />
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True Love burns the brightest, but the brightest flames leave the deepest scars.<br />
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The worst thing you can do for love is deny it; so when you find that special someone, don't let anyone or anything to get in your way.<br />
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Lost is the man or woman who postpones loves to find one's self. In companionship is where you will better find yourself and your partner and love of both.<br />
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You've spent your whole life running and running, trying to catch up with something that has never been there for you. And all you've done is go farther and farther away from the precious love that's been waiting for you all this time: me.<br />
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The worst thing a person could do is lie about loving you or say they love you when their actions show they obviously don't. <br />
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Never confuse lust for love. Lust is a temporary feeling. Love is a feeling that lingers and that's felt in the soul.<br />
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You can't hide what your heart feels<br />
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What's the sense of running away from love when it'll probably be the best thing that ever happend to you?<br />
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Karma is and always will be a bitch. Never do to others what you don't want done to you. <br />
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Honesty is the key. If you can't even be honest with yourself then how can you expect to be honest with others? Furthermore, why should ANYONE ever be honest with you if you're not even honest?<br />
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Love equals pleasure and pain<br />
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In the end, will lust or love conquer all? <br />
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When a woman's been constantly lied to, cheated on, misled, hurt and abused, how can you expect her not to have her guard up?<br />
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If you can't prove how much you love a person, do you deserve to have them?<br />
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How can you move on with your life if you have unfinished business with your ex? Is it fair to mislead the new person on, have them out on a thin loose rope that's waiting to pop?<br />
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Beauty is skin deep. If you're truly looking for love, look at what's beneath the surface. You just may find your diamond.<br />
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Why spend a lifetime searching for something that's right in front of your face?<br />
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Would you rather have someone who constantly causes you drama or be with someone who has your best interest at heart and provides you with a peice of mind & tranquility?Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2732204543879416005.post-86546914765978373382011-02-19T22:10:00.001-08:002011-02-21T18:09:29.113-08:00Silly of meI had never felt so sure about being with someone in my life<br />
Wanted to spend my days with you, my nights with you<br />
Wanted to show you all of me, from the inside out<br />
Was so ready to slowly let down my guard and trust again<br />
Wanted to show you the softer side of me, the side that made loving possible<br />
Wanted to offer you the key to unlock my heart, I wanted you to be my ultimate love; I felt like you may have been the one, felt like I would finally be happy for a change but that idea quickly changed. Silly of me to think I could ever have you for myself; Silly of me for thinking I could be the one to make you happy; Silly of me for falling for you, saying I love you, telling you all I wanted was you in my present & future<br />
Silly of me to offer you all of my great qualities, silly of me for believing you trusted me with your heart; silly of me for spending countless nights listening to love songs, missing you, yearning for you<br />
Craving your touch, wanting to be in your presence, wanting you to be the only one to make love to me, silly of me for having all of these silly thoughts, silly of me for living in a fantasy world<br />
Thinking that anything and everything was possible, when in actuality, nothing was possible because you didn’t want it to be possible. The love that I wanted to fall in love with never gave me the chance to show love ultimately from the interior to the exterior….<br />
So much false hope; so much time waisted; so much I looked forward to for...nothing. You spoke those three words...I love you... but if you truly loved me, then you'd be in my present instead of now being my past.<br />
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Goodbye loveUnknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2732204543879416005.post-11049104431624364482011-02-13T00:16:00.000-08:002011-02-13T00:25:56.421-08:00Feels like...My heart is GoneFeels like... My heart is gone<br />
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Feels like...I'm dreaming but I'm awake<br />
Feels like... I'm numb and frozen<br />
Feels like... My pulse is getting weaker<br />
Feels like...My heart stopped beating<br />
Feels like... My heart is gone<br />
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Feels like...My world is falling apart<br />
Feels like...I'm in the dark, and it's so cold<br />
Feels like...I'm in a state of confusion & uncertainty<br />
Feels like...My heart has stepped out of my body<br />
Feels like... My heart is gone<br />
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Feels like... I've been cut into a million peices<br />
Feels like...The tears running down my face are unreal<br />
Feels like...My hopes were up too high for nothing<br />
Feels like...I stepped forward and fell flat on my face<br />
Feels like... My heart is gone<br />
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Feels like...I put my heart on the line and...it was cut<br />
Feels like...I'm living but I'm not<br />
Feels like...I'm breathing with no air<br />
Feels like... the ultimate love I longed for vanished<br />
Feels like... My heart is gone<br />
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Feels like...I have to give up and never look back<br />
Feels like...I'm closing my heart to love, because love hurts too much<br />
Feels like...I'm constantly giving myself and getting mind fucked<br />
Feels like...The word "Love" equals disappointment, lies & pain <br />
Feels like... My heart is gone<br />
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Feels like...My brain has shut down<br />
Feels like...A storm has wiped everything away<br />
Feels like...I was left on a deserted island with no food or water<br />
Feels like...A nightmare I'm praying to wake up from<br />
Feels like... My heart is goneUnknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2732204543879416005.post-4504886232914545392011-02-03T17:40:00.001-08:002011-02-06T19:20:21.593-08:00Gone...Feels like I’ve been slowly dying<br />
Slipping into a coma for quite some time now<br />
Headed into a deep dark cold sleep<br />
Thinking that it was all a dream when…<br />
It was actually reality settling in<br />
I did things to mask the hurt and pain but<br />
It didn’t work, each day I died slowly until<br />
One morning I felt numb and lifeless<br />
I felt pain in my heart, distress, a void <br />
That morning… I died. Every inch of me that ever loved<br />
Died. My heat couldn’t go on loving anymore<br />
Hurt, pain, distress, mistreatment, neglect, my heart<br />
Walked all over. My feelings? Crushed. My thoughts? Ignored<br />
My wants and desires? Overlooked. Love had infected me venomously<br />
If this is the result of what love is supposed to feel like then<br />
Pull the plug and let me code blue. No need for me to cling on to life when love will leave me for dead anyway. Love? I put EVERYTHING on the line for it, sacrificing so much to end up with…a broken heart. Love, has left a bitter sweet taste in my mouth. Love has caused me to have:little to no trust, insecurities, doubtfulness, worrisome, love has scarred my perception of what love is truly supposed to be like and feel like. Love has corrupted my mind<br />
Love has done nothing but lead me in a ruthless and reckless lane, ending up feeling alone, used, dissatisfied, angry and disgusted. My heart? I decided to lock up and throw away the key. Love doesn’t live here anymore, sick of being lied to, sick of being alone, sick of fantasizing about one day having this “Love” out of a fairy tale book. I’m now convinced that love is for the birds, the butterflies and the bees, love is not for me. If I can’t be shown love, If I can’t get what I deserve from love, if love can’t help me make the right decisions instead of leading me into a danger zone, I don’t want love. I don’t believe in it anymore and it doesn’t believe in me either. If I can’t be rescued from Love’s torture chamber, then Love will remain nothing to me. Love? The word is constantly misused for one’s own selfish purposes. Love? The word is entailed with empty promises, broken promises, too many sorry's and lame excuses and not enough time invested in showing what love really means. Love, I’ve had enough. Love, stay away from me. Love, don’t utter the words when you refuse to show your true self. Love? I can't.....Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2732204543879416005.post-32683169099003106852011-01-13T19:29:00.000-08:002011-01-20T18:19:33.158-08:00My Love Equals SimplicityMy love<br />
Is one that's not complicated<br />
But is simple and real<br />
If I tell you I love you<br />
Then believe me, I do<br />
But love should never be a one way street<br />
Love should always be proven with action<br />
It never takes much <br />
To make a girl like me happy<br />
My Love Equals Simplicity<br />
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My love doesn't require<br />
Materialistic trinkets for happiness<br />
My love cannot be brought<br />
My love remains.....simple<br />
Quality time<br />
Romance<br />
Wining and dinning<br />
Special and memorable moments<br />
Adventure<br />
Exploration<br />
A love that can be given and received<br />
By both people <br />
My Love Equals Simplicity<br />
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I love to love<br />
I love being in love<br />
Having that intimate and deep connection<br />
Having similar qualities and similar interests<br />
It feels so good, being wanted and appreciated<br />
Being loved, you looking into each others eyes<br />
Appreciating each other as a whole<br />
Holding hands<br />
Making plans<br />
Making love<br />
Having out-of-this-world-sex<br />
That takes you to new heights<br />
Feeling so many things that<br />
You've never felt before<br />
A love like mine can have you <br />
All up in love & smiling because<br />
Loving me is never a mistake<br />
My Love Equals Simplicity<br />
<br />
<br />
TO BE CONTINUED......Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2732204543879416005.post-79956753088007067282011-01-10T20:30:00.000-08:002011-01-11T22:36:33.731-08:00Why?<i><b><i>Why should I open up to you? <br />
Only to be let down<br />
Why should I let you fill my head<br />
With all of these fantasies and fairy tales?<br />
You’ll say everything I wanna hear<br />
Only to get what you want<br />
Then when you’re finished<br />
In the end I’ll get NOTHING I want<br />
Then you wanna act brand new, wow<br />
Why should I wear my heart on my sleeve?<br />
So you can walk up to me and stab it?<br />
Why should I think that you’re different from the rest?<br />
Why should I get my hopes up for nothing?<br />
When all that’s being ran on me is a mind game<br />
One minute your hot, the next your cold<br />
I can’t ride on your emotional roller coaster<br />
I can’t and won’t be your Muppet baby, puppet or play thing<br />
My heart is too real and genuine for that<br />
My love is too kind, caring and catering<br />
To let you or anyone unworthy take advantage of it<br />
I am a woman, I’m human and I have REAL feelings<br />
My feelings do count<br />
Maybe not to you but hey, that’s your loss<br />
So why should I believe anything you say?<br />
When things seem “a little off” at times<br />
It’s that woman’s intuition that’s telling me that<br />
Most likely someone else has your attention so<br />
Why should I fall for you?<br />
So I can get my fuking heart broken?<br />
So I can be up crying at night because <br />
I didn’t hear from you or see you?<br />
One minute your up, the next your down<br />
Then you get nonchalant, oh no, I can’t<br />
Did I say I wanted to fall in love or even catch feelings for you?<br />
NO. So why should I listen to you tell me about your feelings for me?<br />
So I can get gassed and end up falling flat on my face<br />
And you won’t be there to catch me? <br />
So the plan is for me to set myself up for empty promises?<br />
So you’ll say we were on the same page<br />
But really you’re not on the same page as me, and If you’re not then<br />
I have to say goodbye, or maybe you’ve said goodbye <br />
And I’m the dumb ass that’s waiting for a call or meet up that I’ll never get<br />
Because my feelings are already in way too deep<br />
And I’m afraid if I continue I’ll hit rock bottom<br />
And you’ll be on the next plane to ecstasy with the next bitch<br />
While I’ll be locked away in a cold prison called sadness with other women<br />
Suffering from a broken heart, withdrawal and stupidity syndrome<br />
Yeah, so why should I continue to play the fool for you?<br />
When what you said you wanted in a woman is staring you in your face: ME<br />
And yet, I’m just not enough for you<br />
So I see<br />
What matters to me doesn’t matter to you<br />
And I’m assuming you have a better woman or women in your life<br />
To fulfill all of your useless needs<br />
Thanks for the good time<br />
But I’m not up for the usage anymore<br />
Why?<br />
Because I am worth more than just a good time in the bedroom<br />
My shop is now closed to you. <br />
You’re no longer privileged to feast in this shop, steal goodies, and use what you want, come and go as you please and not give a damn about anything but your own wants and needs. SELFISH ASS. So yes, I’m through. My heart, feelings and emotions are now switched off.<br />
Why?<br />
Because I refuse to accept your pack of lies & I’ll no longer be stupid & be your spare tire when you need a good fix<br />
<br />
Goodbye<br />
<br />
Copyright ©2011 LaRita C.</i></b><b></b></i>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2732204543879416005.post-65326747878157048792011-01-07T22:50:00.000-08:002011-01-09T14:58:34.096-08:00Officially Wanting YouBaby...<br />
<br />
If wanting you is wrong<br />
<br />
Then I don't ever wanna be right<br />
<br />
I'd rather be wrong for the rest of my life<br />
<br />
Then to be without you<br />
<br />
A piece of my heart dies slowly each day<br />
<br />
Knowing that you’re gone<br />
<br />
But If I could have just a piece of your love<br />
<br />
I’d rather have that then to have nothing at all<br />
<br />
<br />
I have come to the realization that indeed<br />
<br />
Loving you is wrong but…<br />
<br />
I can’t help myself<br />
<br />
Absolutely not, and I know I should care but…<br />
<br />
Let the truth be known: I love you<br />
<br />
Deeply<br />
<br />
And although I do respect you and what you have<br />
<br />
That will NEVER stop my heart from feeling you in it<br />
<br />
So if loving you is wrong, then let it be wrong<br />
<br />
Because being right is NOT an option for me<br />
<br />
<br />
Baby…<br />
<br />
If you dig deep into your heart<br />
<br />
Will you find me in it?<br />
<br />
I’m as serious as death<br />
<br />
Will you find at least a piece of me<br />
<br />
Buried inside of your heart?<br />
<br />
Will you close your eyes<br />
<br />
Picture us together<br />
<br />
Our lips softly gracing each other’s<br />
<br />
My hands caressing your beautiful skin<br />
<br />
Trailing deep and passionate kisses along your neck<br />
<br />
Your arms wrapped around me tightly…like you don’t wanna let go<br />
<br />
My tongue dancing around yours<br />
<br />
Baby… I’m getting weaker by the seconds<br />
<br />
Thinking about our bodies pressed against one another's....<br />
<br />
It's official, I want you, I really do<br />
<br />
<br />
So If these feelings are wrong<br />
<br />
Tonight, I don’t wanna be right<br />
<br />
Tonight I wanna appreciate you<br />
<br />
From the top of your head<br />
<br />
Down to the bottom of your feet<br />
<br />
Baby…<br />
<br />
I wanna make love to you.<br />
<br />
<br />
Copyright ©2011 LaRita C.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2732204543879416005.post-73739539469922906622011-01-02T19:33:00.000-08:002011-01-07T23:21:25.764-08:00UntitledThis time around....I wanted it to be so different...So I closed my eyes and drifted off into a deep sleep... I ended up In what appeared to be fantasy land, where everything seemed so serene and peaceful.I felt few worries, no stress, everything seemed to feel...different. I took a seat by a pond. The water was so amazingly beautiful, literally sparkling, my soul pounded with delight and I was smiling from cheek to cheek.Startled by the tap on my shoulder, I jumped up...to meet the eyes of someone so breathtaking, I became speechless, not knowing what to say next. The stranger<br />
introduced himself and lifted my hand in the most delicate way.<br />
I blushed with delight and my stomach stirred with butterflies... what was going on? I quickly dashed away, hearing the stranger calling after me, but how did he know my name? Filled with confusion, I turned around and the stranger was gone.I jumped up from the deep sleep, wiped the sweat from my head and looked around my room as if I would spot the stranger. Wow. My head instantly pounded with a massive headache.<br />
<br />
The next night, I fell into another deep sleep. I end up back at the pond, my eyes searched all around for the stranger. It was only within seconds of seeing the stranger the night before that I realized how drawn to his spirit I was. It felt right to be in his presence. I wanted to know more about him, where he was from, I wanted to know him from the top of his head to the bottom of his feet, on a mental level, spiritual level, emotional level, physical level....I wanted this time around to be different. Surprisingly while I was in deep thought the stranger had sat beside me. I was nervous but we talked for what seemed like hours. By the end of the conversation, my soul felt connected to his. We were like two pure natural beings. He was the earth and I was his Sun. Our connection was so deep that we had already developed this mutual understanding for one another.<br />
<br />
For the next weeks, I continued to have this same dream, the stranger and I meeting up, talking, walking, holding hands, so heavily and deeply connected we were like two magnets that couldn't be pulled away from each other. I wanted to be his everything. I had NEVER felt that way about anyone. Sometimes I often wondered, was is just a dream, was it just a fantasy? When was I going to get my chance to experience the ultimate feeling of love? Hell, what was the Ultimate feeling of love? Was it taking the time to really know one another, trusting each other, communicating with one another, respecting one another, being patient with one another, accepting one another, being real with one another, taking the necessary quality time to actually love one another, spending this amazing time together to get to that level of learning how to meet that person's needs on all levels. Taking long strolls through the park together, dining together, engaging in several activities together to keep the hearts strong and pumping, traveling together, taking strolls along the beach, taking pictures together to bookmark the love that was written in the skies, sharing so many intimate moments together with each other, around family and friends.... was this the Ultimate love? Going above and beyond to prove how you feel about a person? Having consideration for the person's thoughts and feelings? Treating each other like you really matter to one another, being in love and blinded by love because it existed in both partners eyes....wow, this is the kind of love that I wanted.<br />
<br />
For one week straight I didn't have the dream. I went to bed disappointed and alone. I wanted to have this dream because it felt so real..... and the next night as I turned the key in my door I dropped my bag of groceries as I spotted him....the stranger! What was really going on? His eyes met mine, as if he knew me. His jaw dropped. We came close to each other. As I began to speak he put his finger to my mouth and said...please....don't speak. You feel as real as my flesh and my heart that pounds a million beats per second. Please....if this is a dream,if seeing you is a dream, then please...don't ever wake me. I think I have found my Soul Mate. A tear drop rolled down my cheek as his lips pressed against mine.My dream turned into reality.I held tight and never let go.<br />
<br />
Copyright ©2011 LaRita C.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2732204543879416005.post-90233417978061146632010-12-12T18:08:00.000-08:002011-01-07T23:22:58.971-08:00I Need YouI need you<br />
<br />
More the than sunlight needing to shine<br />
<br />
More than the moon needing the night<br />
<br />
More than the clouds needing the sky<br />
<br />
I need you so bad it hurts more than a mutha<br />
<br />
More than the earth needing the rain<br />
<br />
More than my heart can fukin bear<br />
<br />
More than you'll ever really know<br />
<br />
I need you so bad that it's killing me<br />
<br />
So bad that these butterflies are making me sick<br />
<br />
I wanna scream<br />
<br />
I wanna cry<br />
<br />
I wanna protest<br />
<br />
I wanna fight<br />
<br />
I wanna confess<br />
<br />
I love you so much, more than love itself<br />
<br />
I would do anything to have you back in my life<br />
<br />
Spend the rest of my days making up to you what I did<br />
<br />
Baby, You are my soulmate, the one I was meant to be with<br />
<br />
Yes, I threw our love away, but with you I was beyond happy<br />
<br />
Maybe back then wasnt our time, but will it ever be our time again?<br />
<br />
How could it be when your in the arms of another? My heart sunk <br />
<br />
Sunk to the bottom of my stomach, beause I realize what I had and I let it go<br />
<br />
Now your in the arms of another, someone who is obviously your soulmate<br />
<br />
She was made for you, but you were made for me<br />
<br />
And if I had a second chance<br />
<br />
I swear I would give you ALL of me....but, apart of me feels like there will<br />
<br />
be no second chance for us, and this is my fate..... to be without you<br />
<br />
I'm numb without your love<br />
<br />
Your love is the one that set me free and made me see<br />
<br />
That love out of a fairy tale book does exist<br />
<br />
My heart hasn't been the same without you<br />
<br />
And if I never have you back, my heart will 4ever be missing a peice<br />
<br />
I need you, and it crushes my heart to see and know that your heart belongs<br />
<br />
To someone else...<br />
<br />
I need you so much<br />
<br />
That's all I can say<br />
<br />
And there's nothing I can do but...<br />
<br />
Watch you live your life in happiness with someone else.....<br />
<br />
God, this hurts so bad<br />
<br />
Love, <br />
<br />
I will 4ever need you.<br />
<br />
<br />
Copyright ©2010 LaRita C.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2732204543879416005.post-14124321269569969392010-11-27T21:31:00.000-08:002011-01-07T23:17:47.923-08:00If Only For Tonight<i>If Only for Tonight<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
If only for tonight<br />
Your touch was wanted<br />
<br />
A need for your embrace<br />
A need for your arms to be<br />
Wrapped around my body<br />
<br />
Your lips pressed softly<br />
And gently against mine<br />
<br />
A sweet and slow kiss<br />
Full of intensity and passion<br />
<br />
Would have set the night right<br />
Because your touch was wanted<br />
<br />
My mind, my body and my spirit<br />
Was in an alone state <br />
<br />
Simply wanting to share an intimate<br />
Moment with you, weather it being right<br />
Or wrong, but if only for tonight<br />
<br />
I could have had a moment where we'd look<br />
Into each other's eyes and feel whatever we were free to feel<br />
<br />
Being right or wrong, the connection we have cannot<br />
Be ignored, because I know you have felt it and maybe you still do<br />
<br />
Only you know what you feel, and I know if only for tonight<br />
I would have had the chance to lay in your arms, feel your kisses<br />
Trail my neck, my back, down to my breast, and maybe more<br />
<br />
If only for tonight, you could have wrapped your body around mine<br />
<br />
And held me until the sun came up<br />
<br />
I would have been completely yours<br />
</i><br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
Copyright ©2010 LaRita C.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2732204543879416005.post-47444592149672370372010-08-29T21:01:00.000-07:002010-08-29T21:19:28.569-07:00Why Choose Me?<br />
<br />
<br />
Why Choose to worship inside of my Love??<br />
<br />
Because, I can love you like no other<br />
<br />
Treat you the way you’re SUPPOSED to be treated<br />
<br />
My love is sacred, secure, warm and plentiful<br />
<br />
My love will have you feeling like you’re on cloud nine<br />
<br />
No more pain, no more distress or stress, no more worries<br />
<br />
No more searching for something that’s right in front of your face<br />
<br />
I’m here baby, ready, willing, able, and capable. Take my hand and follow <br />
<br />
me. Words mean nothing without action, so allow me to show you<br />
<br />
Because I can definitely show you better than I can tell you, I’m ready, <br />
<br />
are you? <br />
<br />
Why choose to worship inside of my love??<br />
<br />
Because my love is accepting, never judging you <br />
<br />
From your past experiences but open and willing to mend your broken <br />
<br />
heart, willing to show you that love is REAL and it still exists<br />
<br />
My love is understanding, patient, comforting and empathetic<br />
<br />
This love is worth worshiping in, may overwhelm you at times but never <br />
<br />
deny you. My love will have you feeling so many things that<br />
<br />
At times, you may be confused by what you’re feeling, but you will<br />
<br />
Soon understand the true essence of falling, feeling this deep <br />
<br />
connection, so intense that you will forget about your ex and all the <br />
<br />
pain that she caused you. Your past will indeed become a thing of the <br />
<br />
past, for I will erase your hurt and replace it with Joy, which includes:<br />
<br />
long talks, long walks, dinners by candlelight, sharing the simple things <br />
<br />
in life, making each other happy, feeling pure bliss inside out, trust, <br />
<br />
honesty, loyalty, sincerity, communication, compassion, consideration, I <br />
<br />
can go on but I won’t. Are you ready to be happy and let go of your <br />
<br />
hurtful past? Come with me. My love is here, you choose. <br />
<br />
Why choose to worship inside of my love??<br />
<br />
Because with me you can be yourself, for everyone has faults, no one is <br />
<br />
perfect. With me, you don’t have to pretend to be something you’re not. <br />
<br />
With me, you will experience……what it feels like to feel complete, <br />
<br />
knowing that someone has your back in good times and in bad, we can <br />
<br />
comfort each other, stare into each other’s eyes, hold each other tight, <br />
<br />
make sweet passionate love along with feeling this deep-rooted <br />
<br />
connection, laying in each other’s arms, watch the sun rise and sun set, <br />
<br />
none of this is impossible baby. So, are you ready for this? Time, <br />
<br />
appreciation, attention….let me end your bitter thinking and lead you <br />
<br />
into the light with me, where you’ll never have to walk alone. <br />
<br />
I promise you, my love is worth worshiping in.<br />
<br />
All that you’ve been looking for, all that you’ve hoped and longed for <br />
<br />
has finally arrived. Come abroad this ship and sail away with me.<br />
<br />
Trust and believe, your heart is safe with me my love. <br />
<br />
I can’t spend eternity trying to convince you how real I am. Try me, and <br />
<br />
you will see, no mistakes will be made by choosing to worship in my love, <br />
<br />
so…..<br />
<br />
Why choose to worship inside of my love??<br />
<br />
Because this is a place of comfort and security<br />
<br />
Don’t be afraid. All that you are looking for is here. Look into my eyes <br />
<br />
and believe, have faith, step inside, let yourself go, fall and I will <br />
<br />
catch you. You’ve come to the right place<br />
<br />
Come worship inside of my love.<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
LaRita C.<br />
Copyright ©2010 LaRita C.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2732204543879416005.post-63820731009918210922010-07-25T19:10:00.000-07:002010-07-25T19:26:50.829-07:00I am Poetry<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhhks7dipkpQKauWNs_KNgwLfgpPu4JXWyUiJONodbMt-nXRZ70zjo_mIkH5C55EzjVe_1qmB5xiHC-wORjGgt07MYPg-H0NXm3cfOnKgNZ1TYyBUFQnkHoqeiJ4KsKZ6srd5W9MLHlN0pe/s1600/IMG_7046.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; cssfloat: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="200" hw="true" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhhks7dipkpQKauWNs_KNgwLfgpPu4JXWyUiJONodbMt-nXRZ70zjo_mIkH5C55EzjVe_1qmB5xiHC-wORjGgt07MYPg-H0NXm3cfOnKgNZ1TYyBUFQnkHoqeiJ4KsKZ6srd5W9MLHlN0pe/s200/IMG_7046.JPG" width="133" /></a></div><em>I am poetry </em><br />
<em><br />
</em><br />
<em><br />
</em><br />
<em><br />
</em><br />
<em><br />
</em><br />
<em><br />
</em><br />
<em>I am poetry</em><br />
<em>From the top of my head</em><em><br />
</em><br />
<em>Down to the bottom of my feet</em><br />
<em>I’m like a breath of fresh air</em><br />
<em>Once you inhale you’ll slowly exhale </em><em><br />
</em><br />
<em>Savoring every inch of me</em><br />
<em>Not wanting to waste a moment of this pure goodness</em><em><br />
</em><br />
<em>I am poetry</em><em><br />
</em><br />
<em>Can’t you tell?</em><br />
<em>My lips are like a sweet succulent peach</em><br />
<em>One taste will leave you speechless and desiring more</em><em><br />
</em><br />
<em>Do you like how juicy they look? Mmmm </em><em><br />
</em><br />
<em>I am poetry </em><em><br />
</em><br />
<em>From the nape of my neck and my soft skin</em><em><br />
</em><br />
<em>Down to the thickness of my body</em><br />
<em>Is your mouth watering yet baby? </em><em><br />
</em><br />
<em>My eyes, they’ll draw you in </em><em><br />
</em><br />
<em>Pulling you deeper into my trance</em><em><br />
</em><br />
<em>So deep that you’ll get lost in me</em><em><br />
</em><br />
<em>I am poetry</em><br />
<em>Like a T-bone steak</em><br />
<em>That’s been slowly cooked to perfection</em><em><br />
</em><br />
<em>Like a mug filled with delicious sweet hot chocolate </em><br />
<em>Slowly melting the marshmallows and warming your body up with the quickness</em><em><br />
</em><br />
<em>I am poetry</em><em><br />
</em><br />
<em>Like a flower that begins to bloom</em><em><br />
</em><br />
<em>Like a rainbow butterfly </em><br />
<em>Sitting on the edge of the ocean’s blue water…beautiful</em><br />
<em>I am poetry</em><em><br />
</em><br />
<em>I’m thick like honey </em><br />
<em>Sweeter than candy</em><em><br />
</em><br />
<em>Taste like milk chocolate</em><em><br />
</em><br />
<em>Melting in your mouth and never in your hands </em><em><br />
</em><br />
<em>Gets wetter than a rain storm…so wet you’ll be drenched…but satisfied for sure</em><em><br />
</em><br />
<em>I am poetry</em><em><br />
</em><br />
<em>When the paint glides </em><em><br />
</em><br />
<em>Across the canvas</em><em><br />
</em><br />
<em>When the paint brush graces the page</em><br />
<em>You began to work on your masterpiece</em><em><br />
</em><br />
<em>It’s a beautiful piece about poetry</em><br />
<em>Like no other that’s ever been created</em><br />
<em>Filled with definition and character</em><em><br />
</em><br />
<em>Nothing else can compare </em><br />
<em>To this work of art </em><br />
<em>You stayed up all night working on it</em><br />
<em>Taking your time, making sure no angles were missed</em><br />
<em>Or even a beat</em><br />
<em>Poetry was created, the best thing that there ever was</em><em><br />
</em><br />
<em>I am poetry</em><em><br />
</em><br />
<em>Magical</em><em><br />
</em><br />
<em>Breathtaking</em><br />
<em>Fulfilling</em><em><br />
</em><br />
<em>Intoxicating….should I go on?</em><br />
<br />
<em>Close your eyes and consume me entirely…mmm</em><br />
<em>I am poetry</em><br />
<em><br />
</em><br />
<br />
<em><br />
</em><br />
<em><br />
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<em>LaRita C. </em><br />
<em>Copyright ©2009 LaRita C.</em>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2732204543879416005.post-10391724136614577262010-05-26T19:21:00.000-07:002010-09-11T12:23:42.376-07:00Who is LaRita?Hello People!!! It's been a long minute since I wrote a blog, so I just wanted to reach out to whomever do read this blog. So, Who is LaRita? Who am I? I am a mother, a lover and there can be no ther, L.A.R.I.T.A. Ok, lol. So only a few people really know who I am, other know of me and the rest may be bullshit that people say, if it's negative, lol. I keep it real, bout 98% of the time, try not to hurt people's feelings. So, as of last July, 2009, I am now a published author. I write poetry, short stories and my first novella will be publsihed this year 2010 very soon. The title of my latest book of poetry is titled, "Love Without a Limit," by LaRita C. I am sooooo sooooo very proud of myself for following my dreams and making it reality. I am very proud of my first work and the people who supported me I will never forget: Essence, Keisha, Kasim, Aunt Josephine, Elease, Paula. Thanks mom, bro and sis for reading my book and realizing that I do what I set out to do. If anyone else did purchase my book and I didn't mention you, I am very sorry and your support was well appreciated. This is the beginning for me. This year, hopefully before the winter I will be releasing my novella titled, "Bitter: An Eye for An Eye," under my new publication Go Getta Publications. I have so many ideas, hopes and plans and I am putting them into action. I am...A GO GETTA. I recently joined this women's empowerment group/Sista Cirle called L.A.C.E.S. and I am so excited to be paired with other strong black doing great things in the community and for the community. Next month June 2010, I will an official college graduate with my Bachelor's of Science in Human Services, and continuing on to Graduate school in Fall 2010. I also look forward to becoming a mentor to a teenage girl to aid in guiding her the right way in life. I know that I can't do it all but I am damn sure gonna try, lol. I know that God won't put too much on me that I can't bear, so lil mama gonna twork it out, yesssss, lol. I am pretty much a positive female. I only like POSITIVE people in my circle and in my corner. I have no time for fake ones, perps, frauds or shady people. Only people who are really there for me I need and want in my circle. I am a positive lady about doing positive things and I LOVE everyone who is still in my corner and who was true to their words. It means so much to have at least one person who has your back, supports you unconditionally and love you for you no matter what. I have had too many people enter and leave my life who were selfish, envious, wicked and weak. Those are not the type of people I want to share my life with. Be true to me and I will be true to you. I am that real SCORPIO. Love me or hate me, If I ever told you that I loved you, I meant it and chances are, I will always love you. Anyway, enough of that sentimental shyt, lol. This is who I am. This is who LARITA is. xoxoxo.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0