My B-day weekend

This weekend, actually yesterday was my birthday and I was just left feeling very disappointed by certain family members loved ones and friends. I didn't expect much, but I did get some beautiful roses and a beautiful card from my babe , which I loved. Again, I'm a simple woman and didn't expect much. But I was very disappointed that certain people didnt even bother to call me to wish me a happy b-day. These are people that may say they care about me, people that have the nerve to call me their friend, but when my b-day comes...no phone call....no hey what are you doing for your b-day...no nothing. And family? They know my number only when they need something but for any other reason all of a sudden their in their own world and don't bother to call....I REPEAT...ONLY WHEN THEY NEED SOMETHING OR WHEN THEIR TRYING TO SELL SOMETHING...So I keep my distance like everyone else do. And it hit me today as I cried because I feel like when I call someone my friend, or I care about someone I make sure I am there, for moral support and any type of support. When you call me anytime of the morning, afternoon and night, I may be tired as hell but will at least pick up my phone to talk and just be there to listen. If your going thru something, i'm there. If you need me to go with you somewhere because you don't wanna go alone, and you call me, i'm there. So why when it comes to me I get left hanging like i'm not important? It's just a sad thing and for this reason I have stopped calling people that say they are my frineds, my friends. It makes no sense. In the summer time when I wanted to venture out and try something new, I felt like I had to practically beg certain so-called friends to support my endeavours. Is it suppose to be like that? No. People that say they care about you are supposed to show it, supposed to be there for you. And yet, i feel that I have been making myself too available for people but when it comes to me, it's like whatever, i'm busy. They say life is a learning experience, and I am learning each and everyday....

Friends and New Years Resolution

Friends come and go but the real ones are the one's who are still around. I love my friends and just wanna say a quick thank you for being there for me. This past year has been a rough one as far as my love life and god always help me get through, and my peeps. I don't keep my circle large because every bitch is not to be trusted, and my patience is really too thin to deal with snobbish-acting, phony, fake, un-real, stuck up people who call themselves your frineds and i'm like....wow. You come to find out that she's not really your friend...FAKE. I don't have time for it and I won't put up with it. I also understand that friends sometimes outgrow each other, it's just the way it is. Sometimes you come to a point when you just don't feel like dealing with someone's constant bullshit and lying. So, here it is. I am listing my New Years Resolutions early and one of them is to completely cut people off that are of no use in my life. It makes no sense to call someone a friend and they don't play or act the part. I do realize that friends have their ups and downs, but a real friend is gonna be there and have your back, lend their ear when you need it, be there for moral support, tell you things that you may not wanna hear because their honest. A real friend is not always gonna agree with you, and I feel that real friends should respect each other and be able to joke around, laugh, kid with each other, have fun together, cry together and just be there when your friend needs you. You should feel confortable in your own skin around your friend, not feel out of place or weird, feeling like you don't trust that person and have so many complaints that it's never ending. That's insane. I may in bitch mode at times, and that sometimes....but when it comes to my friends I will never take out my anger or frustration on her. Never. No one is perfect, and it takes a real woman to apologize for her wrong doings and mistakes, and if I feel that I may have done wrong then I'll apologize. If I feel I have no reason to apologize because I didn't do anything then fuck no, i'm not apologizing. I say when i'm wrong because no one is perfect, and with a new year fastly approaching, all fake people will be executed out of my life for good. Life is too short to put up with unnecessary bullshit, to cause yourself to become stressed over a bitch that aint even worth it. I recognize who is there for me and who is really out to support me in anything that I do even if they don't agree with it, that is what a true friend does. Simple, and I am ALWAYS there for my friends.
So......Resolution 1. Cutting off unnecessary people in my life and people who are not really friends and don't act or play the part.

Special Thanks

I just want to say thank you to all of my readers. Thank you for taking the time out to come thru to my blogspot to read and leave your comments. All comments are welcome. There is nothing here but peace and love. I touch on topics that people have asked to to speak on that is what this blog page is about: Speaking on requested subjects, giving my personal input and expressing myself the way that I wanna. When you enter Juicy's World, you should just relax, read, listen to my music, play a game below, read your lovescope, read a funny quote and leave your comments. Any suggestions, thoughts, ideas or topics you'd like discussed just hit me up and we'll talk.

Change

Why do people change? Pertaining to family, friends or relationships. Why do people change?

There could have been this one family member that you were close to from childhood. The two of you use to just click and understand each other because no one else understood the two of you, one of those things. But it's like as you grew older, you grew apart, meaning you no longer are on the same level possibly, chose different paths, no longer have that closeness and after a period of time stopped speaking on a regular or stopped speaking all together. So in a way you feel that the person changed. Yes it's true that people do grow older and go their seperate ways but does that mean the closeness should have left or slowly faded away? Does that mean that time spent should have been lost and the phone calls should have stopped?...........People change.

Why do friends change? Yes everyonne has their different ways but then sometimes you start to see a different side of a person that's suppose to be called your "Friend". In my opinion, a friend is suppose to be there for you thru thick and thin, not only when the going is bad but also when the going is good. A friend is suppose to be there when you need someone to talk to, or you could just be bored or lonely at that point and just wanna chat for a few. Is your so called friend suppose to: Not answer the phone cause they don't feel like being bothered, brush you off the phone, telling you they'll call you back and you don't hear from them until like the next day or maybe days later, but when their going thru something your suppose to be there and be all ears?? Hmmm. Or she/he could be too busy wrapped up in their own world they don't have time to talk really or do anything else with you. That could really suck. It could also suck when things between you and your friend are going cool and then all of a suden you find yourself disconnected from that person, you barley talk, hardly ever hang out, and whenever you do invite that person to do things they always can't make it...What's that all about?...So why do people change? Then your friend all of a sudden now wants to notice the change in your actions and start to feel a certain way...They've noticed that you've been keeping your distance...But it's for a reason...Because people change...When things in their life are going well or when people in their lives are finally back "Down to earth" then it's like you were just the friend I use to be real close with and now your no longer needed because she/he has so many other important things to do and that's just the way it is...So...People changed when you stayed the same...And you question yourself: Was I wrong to distance myself?...So now I have changed as well, calling less, taking care of my own business and issues without your close advice and shoulder to lean on or cry on...So the question remains...Will things ever go back to they way it use to be?
Juicy's Opinion: Well, sometimes in life people change. It's just the way it is. Personally in my life, friends have came and gone. The real friends are present and the ones you no longer associate with were never truly your friends. I can and will admit that I am not perfect and I can be bitchy at times, but I truly love all of my friends and when a friend really needs me, I am there, but I will expect the same in retun. I don't like phony people with phony stuck up attitudes. Everyone lies sometimes, but does it make since for a chick to always lie about her shit to make it seem like her shit never stinks? You gotta watch out for that type of friend so....Keep your enemies close....but your shady friends and haters closer. That makes sense to me. And to set the record straight to a certain individual: It's not that I feel that I'm so much on this more maturer level. It is that I am mature, I am a strong woman and I demand respect and will give it. I bleed like everyone else, I have a tough side as well as a soft side and I can speak from experience and from what I've heard from others. People come to me for advice because I am a positive person and I will never call you stupid for making certain decisions. I will stand by you, tell you my opinion because I am your friend, and advise you what your too good to settle for.

Life

I have learned in life that you have to make decisions that will make a difference in YOUR life, no matter what others will say. Life is too short to sit and dwell on unnecessary things and people. Life is too short to sell yourself short, always worrying about what other people will say or think or do. One of my motto's: "DO YOU". It's your life right? So I say this: It's my life and my decisions. If I'm happy then it's all good, cause at the end of the day it's all about me being satisfied with the decisions I've made. What do I say? I LOVE HATERS! I LOVE PEOPLE WHO ARE JEALOUS OF ME, WEATHER THEIR SHOWING IT OR KEEPING IT ON THE LOW. Hate on me and be jealous of me because I am gonna keep doing me and keep rising to the top. I'm blessed right now, I truly am and I pray god continues to bless me. I have some dreams and goals that I'm still trying to accomplish and I will accomplish them. Right now all I need is positve energy and goal oriented people in my life that want to get EVERYTHING they can out of life with good, blessed & rewarding benefits, it's just that simple, hate it, love it, who gives a damn, I'm still me and I love it.

Playing It Safe Pt. 2

Excuse me for wanting someting more than just....a friendly connection; Not wanting just a casual dating or just something platonic....Excuse me....For putting my emotions & my heart on lock and key.... Locked away in a safe.... Possibly locked away for who knows how long.... I know.... Why should the next soul have to suffer due to the past neglect?.... Its just the way it is....Excuse me for having my guard up....blocking so no one could enter....Maybe it's because I've been neglected and misunderstood, games played with and lied to....Can you blame me for becoming frigid like Alaska?....Excuse me for sometimes being confused....One minute wanting something more, next minute standing my ground and determined not to fall.... This situation is critical and at times it gets the best of me..... Lost in emotions....Afraid to fully open up....Afraid if I don't open up the right one will pass me by....Afraid if I do open up and give into my feelings and my emotions....I will get hurt; My heart left bleeding until its drained...no more life....So I continue to play it safe and keep my heart protected....No emotions.... No feelings.... No love.... Equals....No crying....No hurt....No heartache.... No sleepless nights.... No pain....This is my solution until I'm shown THE TRUTH....As Anthony Hamilton put it....It's just the way it is....So excuse me for playing it safe and turning off all feelings and emotions..... Sort of like a pink rose not wanting to fully blossom and it closes it buds, hoping not to die from lack of being nurtured and given love to and being taken care of properly......needing to be deeply rooted and planted lovingly....Realizing the beauty that lies within

To lie or to keep it real?

What do you prefer? A man or a woman that will lie to you or keep it real? There are a lot of people that use the term KEEPING IT REAL and half of those people don't even know how to do that. To keep it real is to first be real with yourself. So basically what it your view?

Juicy's Point Of View: I feel that I would rather be told the truth than to be lied to. I'd rather be hurt with the truth then to be lied to thinking that everything is all good. I believe in keeping it real with myself and others....but some people would choose to spear other people's feelings, but wouldn't you rather that person know the truth and facts instead of them believing lies?